A new beginning

Very pretty Earrings.. white gold.. glitter like they had diamonds on them.. good buy.. bought with the money from what my late grandfather left for me.

Have been wearin them since i bought it.. seems like a reminder that he is gone, took the bad things away.. and left behind somethin good..

Tears flowed… so much… regretfully more from angst than from loss… I blamed him fer my mess… I blamed my grandma fer shelterin me.. i blamed my mom fer not bein smarter… i blamed them all who has showered me love….

We are all human.. we all flaw… we fall, we learn, we grow.. i almost forgot what we are here for..

He left somethin good… he was a good man…. yes he had a second wife… but he stuck by her till his end..a fact i conveniently forgot when i was too busy blamin others…

The funeral: a ritual for the dead to pass on… a ritual for the living to make peace.

Very pretty earrings.. a new beginning with an old soul..

New house, new job, new life, new me.