So weak….

There was a time where I knew what I wanted… and I worked hard fer it.

There was a time where I loved pain… knowin in full faith that it will bring me where I wanted to go.

There was a time where I knew nothin could bring me down.

I was strong.

Relationships failed… I fell and I got up .. fast

Sacrifices made just for the grades.. but it felt great

Physical pain was momentary and and gives a special kind of high.

Friends looked up to me.. sayin that I was "always changin, always moulding myself to be a better person"

Now I'm just a useless weakling.

I cant protect myself from hurt. I'm so vulnerable.

I fall and I stay down.. I stay down and rot..

Failure has become me… I have become failure.

I feel like there is nothin that I can achieve.

I'm a weakling. I hate it. I hate every moment of it.

Dwelling in failure for 5 years. It has become a way of life. A kind of life where I just lie on my bed.. lookin at the beautiful skies and trees…. beware.. for nature fools u sometimes..

I'm in no position to give anybody advice.. I'm so weak.

I'm so scared…. I'm so afraid of the pain that I need to go through…. but i need to breakthrough to spread my wings..  

I want to be weak no more.

And I shall rise in full splendour once again.